I'm having tiktokticktocktick trouble controlling the lapses. stopping myself (stopping Her) until i'm alone tiktoktiktok is becoming more difficult. I haven't lapsed in front of somebody yet but it's only a matter of tiktoktiktoktiktoktime.

hahahahahahahahaha tiktoktiktoktiktoktiktoktiktoktiktoktiktok that was a rather fitting time to have a lapse

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I keep wondering how long it's going to be before I sleep through my alarm and somebody sees the marks before I wash them off. I'm staying up late doing schoolwork and then getting up early and I'm so tiktoktiktok tired. 


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okay um I'm kinda really concerned now

there is a massive gap in my memory from about 4.30 yesterday afternoon to just now, when I woke up. massive. over 12 hours. i just checked my homework i got set yesterday, and it's all been done. i'm not hungry, so i've eaten sometime recently. nothing was out of place, so i decided to write it off as just me being forgetful, take a painkiller for my headache, and go back to bed.

then i got a look at myself in the mirror.

there was writing all over my face.

just "tiktoktiktoktiktok" everywhere.

i don't know what to do.